Just Praising Him for who He is!!!

So…last night as I fell into bed, exhausted from putting on “the front”, I poured my heart out to my sweet husband. Simply put, my heart hurts! I miss my sweet Ari and long to have my precious Libi. I know the truth of God’s sovereignty in my head and trust Him, but my heart is running a completely different direction. My heart is not as quick to understand and at times just doesn’t want to.
Do you ever just put it all out there with God? Last night I did. I just expressed that His daughter was really struggling. I just needed Him to help me through the waiting and the hurt. There is a multitude of ways He could speak to me where I am at right now. He saw fit to answer and bless with perfection. He acted above and beyond what I needed Him to. I can hardly write this without completely sobbing! I can’t figure out why He endures with me. I can’t figure out when I will ever just trust Him and be satisfied in Him ALONE! So how did He bless???? He sent me new pictures this morning of our sweet baby with her package mailed last Tuesday night!!!! I have never seen a package get to her near this quickly. This is miraculous and you could never convince me otherwise. He has done this! He has done this because He hears me, He knows me, and He loves me. How I want to hear Him, know Him and love Him more!!! OH THE DEPTHS AND THE RICHES OF HIS GRACE!

So I encourage you with my devotional…again, from an All Knowing, All Powerful, yet, so intimate God…..

Trust Me one day at time. Trust keeps you close to Me, responsive to My will. Trust is not a natural response, especially for those who have been deeply wounded. My Spirit within you is your resident Tutor, helping you in this supernatural endeavor. Yield to His gentle touch; be sensitive to His prompting.
Exert your will to trust Me in all circumstances. Don’t let your need to understand distract you from My Presence. I will equip you to get through this day victoriously, as you live in deep dependence on Me. Tomorrow is busy worrying about itself, so don’t get tangled up in its worry-webs. Trust Me one day at a time.
-Sarah Young

Psalm 84:12
O LORD Almighty, blessed is the man who trusts in you.

Matthew 6:34
Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

and she's GROWING!

Isaiah 44

1 “But now, listen to me, Jacob my servant, Israel my chosen one. 2 The Lord who made you and helps you says: Do not be afraid, O Jacob, my servant, O dear Israel, my chosen one. 3 For I will pour out water to quench your thirst and to irrigate your parched fields. And I will pour out my Spirit on your descendants, and my blessing on your children. 4 They will thrive like watered grass, like willows on a riverbank. 5 Some will proudly claim, ‘I belong to the Lord.’ Others will say, ‘I am a descendant of Jacob.’ Some will write the Lord’s name on their hands and will take the name of Israel as their own.” 6“I am the First and the Last; there is no other God. 7 Who is like me? Let him step forward and prove to you his power. Let him do as I have done since ancient times when I established a people and explained its future. 8 Do not tremble; do not be afraid. Did I not proclaim my purposes for you long ago? You are my witnesses—is there any other God? No! There is no other Rock—not one!”

My heart rejoices that this is my God and the God of my children!

The updates...She is gaining weight!

She is weighing in at 21pounds and 11 ounces (a 3 pound gain in 5 months)

She is 30 inches.

She is rolling from her stomach to back and back to stomach.

She is putting weight on her feet when in the walker.

She is still struggling with sitting up for very long.

She is in 10% for weight and not on the chart for her height.

We had the privilege of meeting with a doctor and discussing Libi's medical records. It was an encouraging visit. It was great to have a better understanding of her medically. We loved the fact that this doctor refused to but her in a box or label her. He expressed that only God can know her full well. We feel so blessed to have a doctor on board with us and more importantly one that knows our All Knowing and powerful God! He is an international adoption specialist and his insight was amazing! We are questioning her actual birth date. It appears she may be younger than what is indicated by her birth date. Again, something that God knows and we pray that He will fill us with knowledge and depth of insight to be just what she needs. We have been blown away by how He has set a path before us to care for her. I look at these pictures and the ache in my heart grows greater!! I long to see her, moving breathing. I long to hold her and smell her. I long to see that countenance change to JOY!

And once again...most concerning...THE HAIR!! I had to put this picture in so you can see that even it is growing...How we love this sweet, crazy haired baby!!